SENSE OF ORDER IN LIFE
生活秩序感
Since I was young, I've had a strong impulse to restore order to things that are disorganized, including inconsistencies in people's speech, visually unbalanced environments, incomprehensible articles, unrelated items at home, hidden beauty, and even mysterious magic tricks. I feel that such order is a form of beauty. It doesn't necessarily have to be symmetrical; it can also be an asymmetrical balance. When looking at "beauty" from this perspective, it's not about its content being beautiful or ugly, but rather about the deeper, intrinsic order and patterns.
Once I fail to discern the underlying order, I become impatient, frustrated, and uncomfortable, feeling like ants crawling on my skin. The immense demand for order within me makes it difficult to alleviate my headaches, as if my mind is a computer running 24/7, scanning everything around it, trying to regain the order that brings me peace.
Since childhood, I've had six ways to relieve my headaches:
I chose to study design because it requires finding order among numerous variables, including the interests of stakeholders, changing design environments, and even my own evolution. I believe that by becoming proficient in seeking order, my thinking won't exceed its capacity, thereby improving my headache symptoms.
As the saying goes, "If I don't go to hell, who will?" I took philosophy courses, attempting to find order from the ashes and seeking answers among diverse thoughts.
I learned counseling and coaching skills, employing empathy, questioning techniques, being present, active listening, and more, in an effort to discover order from the depths of people's hearts—the moment of enlightenment that surpasses the beauty of material things.
I've always been curious about creativity. My college papers revolved around creativity. Creativity is the key ability to discover the world. It freely comes and goes, elusive, but always appearing at the last moment, bringing me surprises. The beauty found through creativity differs from the beauty derived from analysis. The former exceeds my expectations, creating a broader order and patterns.
I've also learned the value of silence, creating space for my thoughts to freely roam. Many times, order naturally emerges in my mind. The purpose of silence is to prevent external disorder from intensifying chaos, allowing me to better control things.
My painting skills have been exceptional since childhood. Perhaps it stems from an innate, unconscious inclination, as I've been assisting my neighbours in sketching since the age of five. Sketches are indispensable visual tools. With sketches, the process of finding order becomes quicker and easier. The cause and effect of each item become apparent at a glance.
Maintaining inner tranquility, achieving harmony between internal and external, influencing the outer world through the inner, and being influenced by the outer world. I have a strong impulse to regulate my emotions. Only when inner and outer tranquility coincide does order manifest.
Finding resonance with the external temporal order through the repetitive order of physical exercise. Exercise involves repetitive actions such as running, playing tennis, or taking walks. By entering a state of repetition, it allows the cluttered elements to present themselves in an orderly manner.
Maintaining a sense of order keeps me physically healthy and serves as a powerful driving force. Whether it's elective courses in college, career choices, types of interests, or personality orientations, everything that happens along the timeline of life forms a certain order.
Therefore, today, I have discovered a new order once again.
秩序感对我而言是一种强烈的冲动，从小就存在于我内心深处。它驱使我将一切无序的事物重新整理，无论是别人说话中的前后矛盾，还是环境中缺乏平衡感的元素，亦或是难以理解的文章，家中杂乱无章的摆设，甚至是隐藏其中的美感以及神秘的魔术把戏。在我眼中，秩序本身就是一种美。这种秩序并非一味追求对称，而是一种内在的平衡感。当我以这种角度来看待"美"的时候，其内涵并不在于内容的美丑，而是更深层次的内在秩序与规律。
一旦我无法找到事物背后的内在秩序，我就会变得不耐烦、沮丧，感到浑身不自在，就像蚂蚁在皮肤上爬行一般。对秩序的强烈渴望使得我的头痛难以缓解，就好像一台不停运转的电脑，不断地扫描周围的一切，试图恢复那种给我平静的秩序感。
为了缓解头痛，我从小就培养出以下六种方法：
我选择了学习设计，因为设计需要在众多变量中找到秩序，包括利益相关者的利益、设计环境的变化，甚至是我自己的变化。我相信只有当我在寻找秩序方面变得熟练之后，我的思维才不会超出负荷，从而改善我的头痛症状。
俗话说得好，"如果我不下地狱，谁下地狱"。我上了哲学课程，试图从灰烬中找到秩序，从众多的思维中寻找答案。
我学习了心理辅导和教练技巧。通过运用同理心、问问题的技巧、临在的训练和积极倾听等方法，我试图从人们内心深处寻找秩序，那是一个人开悟的瞬间，比物质美更加美丽。
我一直对创造力充满好奇。我在大学时的论文都是关于创造力的。创造力是发现世界万物的关键能力。它自由自在地来去，难以捉摸，但总会在最后一刻出现，给我带来惊喜。通过创造力找到的美与通过分析得出的美不同。前者的美超出了我的预期，创造出更广阔的秩序和规律。
我还学会了沉默为我的思维留出空间自由运转。很多时候，秩序会自然而然地在我的脑海中出现。沉默的目的是防止外界的无序加剧混乱，使我能够更好地掌控事物。
我的绘画技巧从小就非常出色。或许是出于内在的、无意识的驱动。我从五岁开始就帮助邻居画画。草图是一种不可或缺的视觉工具。有了草图，寻找秩序的过程变得更快、更容易。每个物品的前因后果都变得一目了然。
保持内心的宁静与外部的和谐相互协调，是我调节情绪的重要冲动。只有当内外同时安宁时，秩序才会显现。
另外，通过在运动的重复秩序中找到与外界时间秩序的共鸣，也是一种有效的方法。运动是一种重复的行为，比如跑步、打网球或散步等。使大脑进入重复的状态，可以让杂乱的事物呈现出一种秩序的状态。
保持秩序感对于我的身体健康来说是一种强大的驱动力。无论是大学选修课、职业选择、兴趣爱好还是个性取向等，生活时间线上发生的一切都构成了一种秩序。
因此，今天我又发现了新的秩序。
LOVE. DAVID
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